I dont willingly accept change and right now.. its being forced on me. My cousin says shes so proud and excited for me but i just dont know what to think. My emotions confuse me to much, Urgh i wish i could just shut them off some times...
I have realized that i am truly a Cancer, (my emotions rule me, i dont like change and i am very mothering... etc) And i just dont really want to admit it to the people im close to. Id rather be the strong hearted person, where nothing can phase me, But sadly i am not. Argh! I just wiish this madness inside me would end!
Some days i am excited for this new change, for the new experience and the possibilities that come with it. And then other days im scared "shitless" of whats to come.
At least i have 18 more days to deal with this emotional war inside me and if i cant im going to have to bottle them up, Well at least while im in the "kitchen".
Dont need to have a break down while at school , now do i?
At least i can have a mini vacation before i even start school. Cant wait till i go visit my friends for a week..... Hmmm maybe then i can sort out my feelings
Good night..Off to bed i go.
~Cassidy Night
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