Yes i graduated but does that mean i need to know what i want to do with my life? I dont think so.. but everybody else thinks i do. Where i live we graduate high school at the age of 17. Its been a year since then but still... im only 18 i have my whole life ahead of me.
I dont know what i want to be when im older .. and i dont know what im looking for in a guy i just plainly dont know what im doing at this point in my life and im kinda okay with that for now..I know eventually i will find my "calling" and people need to stop trying to force me to find my path now. For now i just need to try to try new things.
Im not the type of girl who goes out on a whim and does something. I honestly dont think ill ever be that way .And i also dont think ill be that person who wants to settle down before i even live my life. I know people who want to be like that. And They all look at me like i should be finding a guy to be with. But honestly how am i supose to do that? i dont know what im actually interested in. I dont even know who i am.
Ive dated and wanted to be with people but they never really worked out in my mind im kinda not ready for that kind of umm distraction? in my life.
Im just tired of all these expectations . Im tired of what people think i should live my life.Im only 18 .When im ready ill find the guy but thats only gonna be after get my life in order. First step is to get my first day of culinary school over with and then maybe after those 15 months i might go college then hopfully i can get somewhere in life.
I said alot of "even" in this blog. Anyways time to start finding my own life
Goodnight :)
~Cassidy Night
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